Jayne V.

4:27
I walked for a while – on the street, through the parking lot, against the gravel. Fell into the dunes and kept scratching myself against the dry bushes; little dots of blood drew in lines from my skin, until I rolled into the mud and lay there like a rock, absorbing the moisture, my body coated and cooled. I crawled into the water, onto a boogey board and rode the wavess.
11:16
I woke up too early and my hands and feet were fucking cool, like last night, when I told you that they always were, and maybe I have a problem about it or something. Like, perhaps it’s abnormal. And I thought about becoming emotional over it. I told you I was. You know my sign, and I don’t really care about those things. Every time we’re off and I’m in m00ds. We do this simple séance with a coke can and incense. Smokin’. I’m still fucked up and you say maybe it’s some hex shit, like did you get any texts saying something about a HEX? You told me it isn’t real though, and then you said I should just mend my relationship with the moon. Okay, so we went to wHaTeVeR Tattoo and I got a moon tattooed on my upper arm.

6:42
People always say how you should be yourself. Like, yourself is this definite thing. Like a rock, or something. Like you can know what it is even. With you I am myself, the self I am that you see me as, but to me, it’s different. I’m always wondering how many there are, transcending. Rocks become dust. (ya know?). And you’re always looking at me with these EYEsss. And I know you like what you see; I’m just saying that I wish you would tell me. (will you ever??).
6:13
When I think about it, this body doesn’t seem real. I could change it whenever. I think about it. And I’m stroking. Like, could that happen, though? And you’re like, please don’t stop this. And I’m like, but I mean, I wish it could.
“My soul in a cat’s body.”

Lick Forever (I Wanna Taste It)
Alyssuh Bioré

Ooo, uhh yea yea yea yea yea,
Oh babE, babE, yea yea, yea yea

Boy, my love cravin’ you like, so oh to vibe.
You’re the candy licking,
Showering me, wet, pls take a dive.
Oh callin’, begging for yr to to sweet.

Baby I’m not always in love,
I’m the kinda girl to play?
But baby always you
Oh I’m gonna lick forever.

Ready, you makin it sweet?
Cravin’ this baby treat?
Look boy show love.
Take it, YES, Ooh love.

(you’re the sugar feeding)

(CHORUS)

Sweet, baby lovin’, oh candy, so ready?
Sugar makin u sweet, I’m licking u forever,
Yr like I got this, so give it.
Satisfying me boy, u know I wanna, wanna taste it.

Ooo, uhh yea yea yea yea yea,
Oh babE, babE, yea yea, yea yea

Missin’, u Boy
Do u come in each always?
That sugar makin you, you sweet to me,
Oh you, you I’m on love each night (my babE)
And yr love callin’, begging,
Knowing what looks good to u.
My cravin’ to always missin’
The sweetest satisfyin is u in me.

Ready, you makin it sweet?
Cravin’ this baby treat?
Look boy show love.
Take it, YES, Ooh love.

(you’re the sugar feeding)

(CHORUS) x2

Sweet, baby lovin’, oh candy, so ready?
Sugar makin u sweet, I’m licking u forever,
Yr like I got this, so give it.
Satisfying me boy, u know I wanna, wanna taste it.

Ooo, uhh yea yea yea yea yea,
Oh babE, babE, yea yea, yea yea

4:20
My eyes fell down so hard, I couldn’t lift, so I let. I’m sore from twisting and you throwing me around like I like you to do. You call me Mini-babe, fresh skin, but my body is thick, wet sand now.
I can see my room, changed. The tv’s on and I’m watching her. Something about the way she wants it, makes me want it so bad. Cute. Sexi. Grl. And I’m swimming in it, wondering if I dreamt her. I wanna watch her dance. She moves like I want to, or perhaps I do. Looking in, there are parts of me I can’t help but see in her.
And I realized, that what I normally think of as a bed was not my bed. I could feel the cat but I couldn’t see her. And you informed me that I must amputate roxy the cat, which wasn’t really roxy, but a representation of her. I cut off layers of her ears–peeled them away; her final layer of ear like paper finger nails. Okay, so I altered her irreversibly, I knew. She was no longer my cat, just a container. I understood these things deeeeeeep. (I wept).

5:08
I see you from the place I’m in, and you weren’t looking. I-SPY.
I wasn’t listening, just stared. And people were talking about that movie where there are these girls who are in this pool, fighting, and then they start kissing, but actually one of the girls is going to kill the other one because she wants revenge, but then it turns out that the girl who you thought was going to die was actually the one who was going to kill the other girl, and like three other guys, who are all connected in some way.
I was really sanguine on this worn, blood couch. Actually, I couldn’t feel my legs, and I tried to remember if I had taken some sht before, or not, or if I had been drugged.
It all goes slow-mo.
This sexxxed girl pounds to me. Forcing, she draws on my lips, dark, rubbing it all over and outside the edges, into the space around. The lipstick builds in thick layers. She pushes the stick into my mouth – it grinds with my teeth. Her legs push into the spread between my legs, as she continues to violate me unconditionally. And I’m feeling inside myself so hard, wanting to push out the heavy stone. I hate her sick laugh, scrape the lipstick off my teeth, and threw the chunk on the armrest.
She stood there with her fucking face, for like ten minutes. I could see you from her eyes, so big, I could see myself.
You and me looking at each other in her Bratz eyes.